I WANT TO BE A FOOL

album

2012-01-27T12:18:00.000-08:00

new project on my WEB

and some more of beds beds beds

if you don't do it others will

2012-01-24T04:37:00.000-08:00

I feel like I need to take some photos again

MAX SHER

STEVEN BECKLY

EMILY SHUR

CELINE CLANET

MAJA DANIELS

SHEN WEI

SPENCER MURPHY

TOM HULL

ROMAIN COURTEMANCHE

MAYA DE FOREST

Baudrillard hit the nail on the head

2012-01-22T06:49:00.000-08:00

.......in a subtle way, this loss of public space occurs contemporaneously with the loss of private space. The one is no longer a spectacle, the other no longer a secret. Their distinctive opposition, the clear difference of an exterior and an interior exactly described the domestic scene of objects, with its rules of play and limits, and the sovereignty of a symbolic space which was also that of the subject. Now this opposition is effaced in a sort of obscenity where the most intimate processes of our life become the virtual feeding ground of the media. Inversely, the entire universe comes to unfold arbitrarily on your domestic scene. All this explodes, the scene formerly preserved by the minimal separation of public and private, the scene that was played out in a restricted space according to a secret ritual known only by the actors......We are no longer a part of the drama of alienation, we live in the ecstasy of communication. And this ecstasy is obscene....But it is not only the sexual that becomes obscene in pornography, today there is a whole pornography of information and communication, that is to say, of circuits and networks, a pornography of all functions and objects in their readability, their fluidity, their availability, their regulation, in their forced signification, in their performativity , in their branching, in their polyvalence, in their free expression. It is no longer then the traditional obscenity of what is hidden, repressed, forbidden or obscure. On contrary, it is the obscenity of the visible, of the all-too-visible, of the more-visible-than-visible. It is the obscenity of what no longer has any secret, of what dissolves completely in information and communication......

from Baudrillard - The Ectasy of Communication

it is very interesting to publish my beds after reading the whole text from Baudrillard....makes me think and wonder and think and wonder....my highest recommendation to give it a bit time and read and think and wonder about it

amateurism

2012-01-18T13:26:00.000-08:00

the views and principles of a person who engages in an activity for pleasure rather than profit.

how the dreams don't come true

2012-01-12T09:31:00.000-08:00

I was never drawing in my life....since I remember my mother was telling me that when I grow up I will study law and I will become a lawyer...She kept describing me her own picture of me so intensely, that I started to believe in it and took it as mine own...She would always say how sure she was, that I'd be an excellent lawyer, walking in Chanel suits with pearl earrings....on the other side there was my sister who was very often sitting by her table with pencils in her hands drawing...since she was six she was going to drawing courses and my mother build up a picture of my sister as an architect...that was actually her own wish coming true since my mother was not "allowed" by the system to study architecture.....I went through my rebellious times ended up not studying law but international relations, to express my rebellion :)....it took some years to convince my mother that I am not the lawyer in Chanel, but I was practically able to go for my own ideas only after I finished PhD and my mother had not much left to ask for...and so I ended up studying at the art academy in Vienna, but for 5 years I never thought that I could try to draw....only this semester when I decided to finish the school and get the credits as fast as possible I picked up drawing classes...just to speed things up little bit...I remember going to my first class feeling really strange...me drawing????....NO my sister is the one who knows how to draw, not me....that was in october.....now I m sitting here listening to audio books drawing and drawing...not because I know how to do it, but because it makes me crazy happy...it is such a contemplating activity....I always felt kind of stressed and nervous when I was not taking photos..kind of as if I was wasting my time....but at the same time I could not take photos all the time, every day....now I don't have to do so, I found something that I can do when I don't take photos...I m not nervous anymore, I set myself free from unfulfilled demands and finally completely from the picture that my mom had about us....I know that this is supposed to be a "photo" blog...but hey I have no new photos to show :).....my sister is a scientist and hates furnishing even her own place, she is promising to get a dining table for 5 years now :))

PS: sorry for this non-photographic spams...I'm not saying that I can draw, all I'm saying is that if I do it anybody can :)

who invented New Year's wishes ??????

2012-01-09T05:29:00.000-08:00

so it is all over....people survived pre-christmas shopping fever and than usual stress that New Year's party has to be The Best gig of the year....and I have survived The Best 20 days without computer....just chilling, reading, walking with Mr.T and his "brother" Ali.....I entered 2012 without stressing myself with any resolutions whatsoever...Now I m back to Vienna and the only goal I have for this coming year is to finish collecting credits and set myself free from schools after 28 years of constant studying....and New Year's wishes??....well I don't really get that idea when I think about it...but I have no problem to wish u all who are reading this loads of inspiring moments, creative energy and power to improve ur everyday reality :).....well that's about it

Zofka and other miracles

2011-12-19T05:39:00.000-08:00

how do you realize that you r getting older?? ...when you stop being excited about parties, when you start to enjoy sitting at home in the evening watching a movie or reading a book??...when you don't understand the strange language of teenagers in the bus, or when you start wishing to have a house in the wood???...well I have slowly reached all of these......christmas is such a strange time of the year...I can't say I m not enjoying sitting on the table with my family..but hell that is about all that makes christmas for me, the rest of it is artificially produced and it is bothering me as much as it can....and I don't need to wish anything for christmas because I wish something every single day and that is to have a house outside of the city...somewhere by the wood, with huge garden full of trees and birds....wishes are for us to make them reality...last year I wished that Zofka would still be with us next year at this time...and I love the idea that she is gonna give us her small christmas speech this year again at age 94....as simple as that it is with making wishes come true

das Kunstwerk ist ohne Publikum nicht zu denken

2011-12-15T12:08:00.001-08:00

i did not take any photo since we came back from Paris....roses on the balcony of my neighbor are blooming....women on christmas markets are walking in ballerinas....and I m taking drawing classes...everything is possible

and Lionel making it possible

Lionel Fahy Tattoo from Bart Pogoda on Vimeo.

boring sunday

2011-12-11T08:13:00.000-08:00

I spent the day sorting negatives I did in last 3 years...Mr.T hates me for such a boring sunday....well now I'm sure that I will perfectly archive each new negative :) ...but at least I came across some old polaroids...and this one is a treasure cause my mom and my sister are most difficult people to take photos of...they both hate cameras

and just to make it complete...my sister

12pc tempera colour set

2011-11-29T06:54:00.000-08:00

we ar ON on OFF

2011-11-28T08:34:00.000-08:00

Mr.T, Mr.B and I are happy to share with you the good news.....we are the winners of ON_Award 2011. It is an award given for the most interesting exhibition in the frame of OFF_Festival Bratislava. This year we were so lucky to receive it for our exhibition As if there was no tomorrow, based on the decision of professional jury and voting on FB page. The price itself was made by talented slovak artist Simona Janisova and it also gives us the opportunity to exhibit during OFF_Festival again next year.

On the second place was exhibion

FRAGILE - CO ROZBIJEŠ, NESLEPÍŠ
Students of the Tomas Bata University in Zlín
Kateřina Měšťánková & Veronika Raffajová (Cz)
Pod kamenným stromom

And third place

PORTFOLIO NOW
Another Photographer (Pl)
LabOratory Gallery

If you missed on seeing those exhibitions you can still download pdf program from OFF_Festival Bratislava web page and check them out.

„Man sieht nur, was man weiss.“

2011-11-24T09:27:00.000-08:00

some photos from Paris.....it seems as if it was long time ago....time is so abstract...just as talent...I hate abstract....you can't touch it...I'm having problems these days....fighting with all those terms as art, artist, talent, talented and time....maybe it is only because I was developing sort of cultivating belief that I might have some talent that is worth to trust and work on.....it was a process....making myself believe that I really believe....but as days are loosing its color I'm starting to realize that I simply have to admit that I was on the wrong path....I don't have to make myself believe that I believe...I just have to face the fact that I have no talent....at least not the one I was hoping for....this is not a depression, I only thought that naming it "loud" would make me feel better...anyway Paris is a nice place to see, but living there would never cross my mind

Karenin's smile

2011-11-23T11:09:00.000-08:00

If I was ever to make a list of my most favorite books, The Unbearable Lightness of Being by Milan Kundera would definitely be in the top three. I love the book but I also treasure it for how much space Kundera devoted to human-animal-dog relationship in one separate chapter called Karenin's smile. As i am huge animal lover myself I could easily understand one of the main characters Tereza and her thoughts...She consistently wonders at the selflessness of her love for an animal, and at the security and comfort she feels when with her dog Karenin who develops a wound on his leg which turns out to be cancer. Tereza is heartbroken, and thinks how much she prefers animals to people. That is when Kundera presents with his ethical and philosophical beliefs: " True human goodness, in all its purity and freedom, can come to the fore only when its recipient has no power. Mankind's true moral test, its fundamental test (which lies deeply buried from view), consists in its attitude towards those who are at its mercy: animals. And in this respect mankind has suffered a fundamental débcle, a débcle so fundamental that all others stem from it." Kundera has always been a passionate defender of animals, not out of simple sentiment, but in the conviction that it is by our treatment of animals that we most clearly display our essential and unforgivable arrogance as a species. As he states in the book, animals are closest to Adam because they were never expelled from Paradise.

For me love for the animals is as essential as breathing, and seeing them suffer makes me endlessly unhappy and hurt...I wish I could do more, I wish humans would actually be "human" whatever that is supposed to mean, I wish I would stop being more and more disgusted from them, I wish...

as if there was no tomorrow

2011-11-20T11:28:00.000-08:00

As if there was no tomorrow is a project about a place which creates a feeling of temporality, place with short past and unsure future. It is a place where everything looks like a movie set built from recycled materials, place which gives you feeling of something very ephemeral and short lasting. But in this place there are living people who have desire to live a life without constant questioning, people who are creative, full of ideas, full of live and passion. They live their lives in contrast to their surroundings, they live for the moment with great energy, they live as if there was no tomorrow.

and today is friday

2011-11-18T03:34:00.000-08:00

Paris was intense in all the possible ways....developing and scanning films might take some time but for now results of our meeting with great tattoo artist Lionel Fahy and his 9 hours work

before and after...tutti frutti

2011-11-07T15:08:00.000-08:00

last week was really busy...we had kind of a wild opening...I met some people I haven't seen in a long time...and there was also couple of disappointments and unpleasant surprises on the way....after all the craziness in Bratislava one busy day in Vienna and on wednesday we'r leaving to Paris, where I've never been before...but for now some completely not interesting mixed upload from Warszaw, Zakopane and Vienna....

PS: I'm launching my new web site, it is not complete and finished yet, but at least it works..... www.silviapogoda.com

we'r almost there..but not yet

2011-10-25T13:48:00.000-07:00

last days were really busy...it was not just the full schedule at university that was driving me mad...much more difficult was to prepare photos for print on time.....yes Mr.B and I are gonna have our first common exhibition...the phase of preparation was more than exhausting...i was inner-fighting with so many issues..how to display our work in a way which would present both of us as separate beings and as a couple...Mr. is a travel photographer...he is not the biggest fan of artistic approaches, he loves to move fast, think fast and act fast....simply said he is not the type that would sit one week on the photos making selections or thinking about different ways of installing them...his way is to go-take photos-come back and show them as fast as possible so that he can move his mind to something else....I'm his total opposite...I don't like to move fast, think fast and I sure don't act fast unless the situation requires it....I was thinking for days and days how to make this exhibition....how to show and what to show...well to find the golden middle so that after all this event is gonna be about both of us was the biggest challenge....now everything is almost done and I m happy to invite you and you and you - which means everybody - to come and support us at the opening next week...I guess I'm gonna need couple of drinks to get over the nervosity (I have to admit that I kind of feel as if I was waiting for my first sexual experience, at least I think this is how it might feel :)) so don't let me down, there is never enough sparring partners to have some fun :)

PS: and I did not mention all the issues with my name on the poster :)
PSs: even though we r not FB users anymore there is a FB event going on so share and invite As if there was not tomorrow

our exhibition is part of OFF_festival and OFF_festival is a young and fresh "infant brother" of much older Mesiac fotografie

big thanks to Jan Estrada-Osmycki for poster and flyer design

Kunst entsteht aus Langeweile ......

2011-10-24T13:27:00.000-07:00

I have crazy schedule at university this semester....and definitely way too much philosophy lesson

nostalgy in B&W

2011-10-22T10:51:00.000-07:00

today was a cleaning day...which means that first we cleaned our heads while walking for three hours with Mr.T in Prater...and than I felt like cleaning my hard drives which did not work out as I imagined cause I could not turn one of them on at all...I truly from the bottom of my heart hate whatever requires electric cord or any kind of remote controller....I m exhausted by constant problems with not working modem, router, scanner, printer, screens and all other sorts of devices which surround me....well anyway going through another hard drive I found these photos done long long long time ago by a friend of mine Vojtech Slama - the most romantic young czech photographer....and as I was looking for the real prints to scan them better I found some other stuff about which existence I forgot long time ago...as those horrible "drawings" which I did one summer sitting on my ass in Kraliky being bored to death simply wasting my time...I suddenly felt this deep melancholy...not for those drawings but for that feeling of past...for a second I could feel the smell of summer, flowers and trees and I could see Zofka sitting next to me doing her crosswords, still able to walk without problems....and the last thing I found was a letter that I wrote probably to myself the day I got my typewriter..I m not able to translate it to english, but I m seriously happy I wrote it in 2008...I can not recollect the actual moment of writing it..but again it's physical presence took me back in time...I m simply being nostalgic today...

and going back in time...this lady came to my mind also

And Mr.B after all managed to finish the video from our flying

A little bit of flyin' from Bart Pogoda on Vimeo.

lost and found in Vienna

2011-10-16T14:38:00.000-07:00

back to Vienna....I was so much looking forward going back to Vienna after 3 months of absence....but even in my most vivid dreams I would not expect that the place could still excite me as much as it actually did....the first day I walked the streets of this city,so often called "boring", I fell in love again...fell in love with such an intensity that I can hardly express it....the smell...the rhythm...the ambivalence...the colors...the atmosphere....the easiness...the pulse...I love this amazing gift of living in different cities-countiers which gives me the possibility of discovering the beauty of one place each time I get back filled with experiences form another one...right now I'm obsessed with exploring myself in Vienna again...it gives me energy...it awakes me...and so I've reminded myself of some forgotten pictures, text and music last week, which I don't want to keep for myself....

Mr. T is having great time also

rio mare - insalatissime messicana

2011-09-30T07:11:00.000-07:00

I'm sick, stuck at home, so I finally found the time to do the beds...I m about to lose my voice, Mr.T hates me because of super short walks, he keeps sitting on the kitchen window looking outside....once he looks like old fat cat and than as a deeply depressed suicidal dog....september is over...I'm going back to Vienna soon and have to admit that I'm looking for it very much...I have loads of ideas but 0 energy to do something about it....autumn is in the air...I can smell it....love how it feels in the evenings and early mornings....we ve seen a documentary about Bill Cunningham - New York and I was impressed....can anyone tell me how it works with the life energy.....Mr.Bill had no love relationships and has more energy than me + Mr.B + Mr.T together....so what about all those women magazines telling us every month how sex is most important after looking good and being IN of course :D

who said I can not fly

2011-09-26T09:55:00.001-07:00

...remember, first you have to eat good and than you can fly....

more photos on Mr.B's blog

if I don't take photos at least I watch them

2011-09-17T12:30:00.000-07:00

...browsing through countless number of various photo blogs and portfolios I came across Jo Ann Walters...could not find web of her own, so I just collected some of the photos that I found...they'r not flashy, shocking or weird...they r simply photos and I like them very much...enjoy....Jo Ann Walters

and some others

Cig Harvey

Denise Grunstein

Christopher Anderson

Mona Khun

Viktoria Sorochinski

Justine Reyes

why quit while you're losing ?

2011-09-17T06:00:00.001-07:00

When photographers get beyond copying the achievements of others, or just repeating their own first successes, they learn that they do not know where in the world they will find pictures. ............. and by doing it over and over and over again, you find your own voice, but it’s just modestly different than someone else’s. And how do you describe that? How do you describe the difference between two saxophone players?

Robert Adams

it's commin and I like it

2011-09-16T03:21:00.000-07:00

...few photos from the last film...autumn is beautiful....

and one very inspiring

LUKASZ WIERZBOWSKI

men at work

2011-09-08T00:51:00.000-07:00

men at work

women at work by Paul McCarthy - WGG Test on ubuweb

Mr.Down is around

2011-08-31T11:00:00.000-07:00

...the one and olny wedding photo we actually did...

...it looks like Mr.Down who joined us during our trip feels like home around me....he just does not want to leave and follows me everywhere I go...so for last couple of weeks I'm accompanied by one big, huge, fat, ugly Down....it caused that I lost myself in completely everything - every aspect of my life - where it is possible...I think I should stop taking photos and start working in the florist's instead....and besides flowers get some pleasure in looking at other people's work....

FILIP DUJARDIN

JOSEF SCHULTZ

MANU MIELNIEZUK

STEVEN BRAHMS

MATTHIEU GAFSOU

MORAD BOUCHAKOUR

BRYAN SHEFFIELD

PETER WATKINS

BRAD MOORE

RAOUL GATEPIN

DANIEL FREYTAG

EMILY SHUR

NICOLAI HOWALT

VINCENT FOURNIER

KATIE SAPHIRO

DANIEL SHEA

well anyway tomorrow my sister -crazy scientist comes for her first visit in Warszaw....I'm very curios how she gets along with my new friend Down

Zofka what'r u doing

2011-08-28T07:50:00.000-07:00

it is sunday and I miss Zofka

get inspired

Sam Williams

Laura McPhee

Lucas Foglia

Birthe Piontek

Kalpesh Lathriga

Ben Roberts

Molly Landreth

Pavel Romaniko

The Selby

Ka-Man Tse

it feels like eating a soup without pepper

2011-08-27T07:48:00.000-07:00

some photos from the trip .... I decided to leave them without any comment .... no soup should be eaten when it's too hot

all I have to say is that I never did so many photos of Mr.B on any of our trips before.....there are some pretty decent reasons which I could use to excuse myself as well as this strange occurrence .... but hell I m gonna keep it look romantic and simply argument with the fact that it was a honeymoon :D

tiny bit of fun

2011-08-20T12:07:00.000-07:00

not much to say...just a road to nowhere

road to nowhere from Bart Pogoda on Vimeo.

Stockholm shoot

2011-08-20T09:06:00.000-07:00

Our recent publication in magazine Viva!. Małgorzata Pieczyńska and her family in Stockholm

I don't want to be a truck driver

2011-08-17T11:33:00.000-07:00

...23 days ago we started the trip leaving from Vienna, it was monday, today is wednesday and we just arrived, completely exhausted and frustrated....but there is couple of things I know now

a, I don't ever want to be a truck driver
b, I don't ever want to travel through western Europe in the summer time
c, to go on honeymoon with camper and stay in over crowded campings is not the best idea, in fact it works as a extreme anti-conception
d, when you think you'r in a deep shit it is still possible to go deeper

...well right now we have to unpack and pack again, do things in Vienna, move to Banska, visit Zofka, and hit the road again to get to Warszaw next week....than maybe some photos will follow...until than I'll try to get back to good mood again and forget the
motto of this years trip..last year it was "What would Eggelston do?" this year a bit less enthusiastic "I have a Down!"

and some inspirations from Arles

Josh Poehlein

Thomas Demand

this one is also good

David Oresick

how about some wedding photos

2011-07-24T05:51:00.000-07:00

...we' r not big fans of wedding photos so we decided not to do them...this way I' d like to thank to all strenuous photographers of our wedding.....it was small, it was intensive, it was long and we enjoyed it ....

We only said goodbye with words, I died a hundred times....

2011-07-23T12:43:00.000-07:00

...Sven is here, Mr.B is here, Mr.T is here...Amy Winehouse is not here.....

Pani publication

2011-07-23T05:54:00.000-07:00

...Mr.B' s and mine photos published in last issue of polish magazine Pani...

without any context

2011-07-21T11:47:00.000-07:00

.....it' s raining, feels like november, misty and cold, street lamps don' t work....i' m waiting for Sven to bring Mr.B and than we can hit the road again....Mr.T is sitting on the window parapet dealing quietly with his bad mood, watching the big dark nothing outside....simply said, july blues

call me Mrs. Pogoda

2011-07-16T02:07:00.000-07:00

and Mr.T has officially new father....but Mr.B thinks they don't look alike

Spinoza from Kraliky

2011-07-11T05:31:00.000-07:00

...these beds are killing me....NEVER AGAIN I'M GONNA DEVELOP FILMS IN SLOVAKIA OR AUSTRIA !!!!!......

... we'r staying in Kraliky for couple of days now...I love how green and quiet it is...and even more I love the fact that I don't meet people...people walking on the streets, talking, people running, people standing on bus stops, people waiting for subway, shopping people, ugly people, fat people, stinky people, loud people, strange people, nice people, people eating on the benches, people on bikes, people smoking on the streets, people sitting in cafes, people staring to nowhere, people talking on the phones, people making incredible noise and chaos...I'm watching Zofka, sitting quietly in front of the house, watching the street, counting those 10 cars that drive up the village a day and thinking about the wonders of the earth...sometimes she gives me these questions like :"Where all that water comes from? Where is the middle of the earth? Why those stars don't fall down on us? What are stones made of? " .... and I think about the book I finished months ago, but I keep coming back to it in my mind...at the beginning I was very sceptic about it cause the name is The history Of Love and when there is a book with such a title written by woman - Nicole Krauss, it it extremely high chance it is gonna be a disaster...but it was not...good I gave it a chance....

........"Then one day I was looking out the window. Maybe I was contemplating the sky. Put even a fool in front of the window and you’ll get a Spinoza; in the end life makes window-watchers of us all."........
Nicole Krauss - The History of Love

summer jam

2011-07-01T04:30:00.000-07:00

....however unbelievable and stupid this may sound, it is the fact .....I'm ( soon to be 32 ) officially beginning summer holidays today.....we have loads of plans for summer and I know already, that some of those "events" ahead of us will sure be unforgettable....so I'll start "holidays" today with washing windows...

....necessary update on today....I have to scream it out loud.....one week ago Mr.T had to be castrated....we went to see the vet, he checked Mr. and said the surgery has to be done right NOW, cause there are two tumors visible on his testicles....I was paralyzed...surgery went well, castration is normally uncomplicated surgery major...but one week waiting for the lab results was like living in the dark....and now the sun came out again...Mr.T is OK....tumors were removed soon enough, before they even had time to become malignant..

....SO, I'm opening a bottle of vine now to Mr.T's HEALTH!!!.....

QL 9513

2011-06-29T10:52:00.000-07:00

collage for Lula

And again portion of inspiration:

Gillian Laub

Lina Scheynius

Elena Redina

Arnis Balcus

Juliana Beasley

Jen Davis

Simen Johan

Taryn Simon

Annette Pehrsson

Samantha Contis

Bradley Peters

ephemeral

2011-06-28T05:50:00.000-07:00

...ephemeral is the most beautiful english word....I love the way it looks when it is written....but most of all I love the sound of it....ephemeral....there is something ephemeral in the word ephemeral, so light, untouchable, delicate and franglible....this word is on my mind for more than a month now....thanks to a good friend of mine....

....from Greek εφήμερος – ephemeros, literally "lasting only one day".....

Gienek Loska

2011-06-22T00:32:00.000-07:00

...last week we did a quick photo shoot in Wroclaw for Viva 13/2011......the main character was Gienek Loska, the winner of polish X Factor with his family...
...Viva did selection of photos....we did our own....
big thanks to Michal Zielinski for great help with location scouting - Bank of locations

there is not always a title

2011-06-20T12:47:00.000-07:00

1. first day in Stockholm
2. constant weather changes a, rain to sun and back b, cold to warm and back
3. Mr.B has pain in the back but Gott sei Dank he does not look so desperate like Amy W. on her concert in Belgrade
4. I did one photo on contax...newspaper with the picture of reindeer fallen on the sidewalk, how symbolic
5. crazy prices....one way ticket for subway 3,2 euro
6. culture shock...we forgot that there is no alcohol in the shops
7. crazy baby boom...is there any social program goin on in Sweden which makes hipsters have kids?
8. don't like shake it app...but it makes things easier, when they are not easy at all
9. i think I'm starting to be antropophobic
10. tomorrow is a new day

wine is almost as good as sangria

2011-06-17T12:27:00.000-07:00

....another day in car....but driving through High Tatras is quite a pleasure...

Just A Perfect Day,
Drink Sangria In The Park,
And Then Later, When It Gets Dark,
We Go Home.
Just A Perfect Day,
Feed Animals In The Zoo
Then Later, A Movie, Too,
And Then Home.

there was no sangria in the park and no animals in the zoo, but everything else made the day almost perfect

.....I start to feel the effect of loging out of FB...it's been two weeks now...I remember that evening when I decided to cut it off...the feeling,that I have to get out was all of sudden so strong that I took my phone and went through the procedure of signing out...it felt like a big victory to press the button and say good bye to strongest social media...I simply realized that FB takes too much from my time, I realized I watch photos of people I have not seen for years ...I know all about their weddings, parties, homes, feelings, free time, hobbies, new born kids, and their first shits and first steps .... I know too many things that are actually not important at all...I was unconsciously preoccupied with lives of people I don't meet...I knew every single thing about my friends...and than, when I met them, we had nothing to talk about...the formula:"So what is new?" disappeared...there was no news, there was no passionate talking...why to ask if you've seen it on FB already...after all I decided that to keep certain level of my mental health and quality of relationships with people I like three years on FB were more than enough....the big victory devaluated into small victory when I realized that once on FB you can't log out, you can only deactivate your account, which is kind of sick....but who cares...simply said...I am not on FB anymore....and I'm happy about that.....I'm looking forward meeting my friends and asking them what is new in their lives......

PURE madness

2011-06-16T12:16:00.000-07:00

...it's been crazy busy last days, or maybe weeks....hard to say cause I can't keep track with my life....there was no time to stop and take a breath...we'r running out of gas....I feel as if there was somebody out there holding a remote and fast forwarding my life...and I am running in circles in a glass bowl, sweat dropping from my forehead, screaming at the control holder to pause the movie...but he can't hear me and sees me probably as a fish opening silent mouth, so he speeds up a little more....
....but there is still loads of things which make me happy....one of them is a nice publication in new PURE MAGAZINE

prague spirit and other sensations

2011-06-09T13:10:00.000-07:00

two weeks ago I got my firs tattoo done...I wanted to have one since I was 19 or 20 which qualifies me to say I wanted to have one for a looong time....when I started to play with that idea, there was a great boom of girls getting their backs tattooed in the waistline with some flowery ornaments...I could not look at it anymore and decided to have a tattoo done on my neck, but I had not really figured out what I wanted to have there....so I decided to skip the idea and wait until I'll have a clear "product image" ....well I did skip it at that time, and forgot about having it done for years...I was just overtaken by the flow of situations and their consequences with irregular flashes reminding me, that I wanted to get a tattoo once....around half a year ago these flashes changed into one constant thought which was growing in my head bigger and bigger until I could not turn it off anymore...I decided that the time has come :) ....I started to look for the artist whom I would trust enough to let him draw on me...and I found the MAN....I absolutely fell for Lionel Fahy

photo by Mr.B

the style he has is what I was in search for...fairy tail like, kind of naive drawings with some sort of lightness in them....tattoos that are poems, like stories spreading over your body so aerial and weightless....I was lucky enough - higher power - to get an appointment with him in Prague where he was one week hosting in Tribo and all I can say is that I m looking forward our next meeting in october, because he is not only a great tattoo artist but also a super interesting person doing loads of great stuff...

I'm a proud owner of this book, so that I have enough inspiration for the next session ... thank you Lionel :)

but not to give all the credits to Mr.Fahy I can not forget to mention that Mr.B was in Prague with me of course and he was really doing great ... I suppose that he was more stressed about the situation (I did not talk here about the big mother/tattoo issue :) ) than me at some point ...so after Lionel finished his job we went to see some good friends of mine and Mr.B let the stress drown in the glasses of beer and vodka...I could not drink that much but Mr. shocked me not just with amount of alcohol he had but also with the fact that he stayed with us - slovak/czech speaking monsters until 5.30 in the morning...only waking up was a bit painful - PRAGUE SPIRIT :)

as Mr.B's hangover and my cigarette-overdose-headache was a topic for whole day we only managed to have a very healthy lunch somewhere

see some brutal scene in the middle of the pond

and fight against Mr.B's bizzare ideas and other monsters on the way home

shitty photos and great music

2011-06-08T13:32:00.000-07:00

....another old film developed.... thanks to these old films I'm realizing how "much" I shoot....on this particular one I found couple of photos from Israel...and that rises a crucial question....but I have no power to bother myself with self questioning and even less with answering...they fucked up the film this time in Bratislava...after latest self-control training I did not get very pissed...I'm getting better...or maybe I simply have other things on my mind...
...since I can not work on so many scratched photos at once I'll just post the leftovers from Israel today....even though they might not be proud demonstrations of Bresson's decisive moment I decided to upload them anyway...just to keep it going and to remember that in june I have finished films that I was shooting in march...some up to date stuff will hopefully follow these days

...and of course I can not forget to mention that Mr.B spent last 3 days working on his pimped blog where he finally allowed people to comment...goooood

OMG I just looked at the photos in this post and they truly are disaster...never mind at least I ll have to post something better soon ..... for now I'm gonna listen to this guy

sometimes nothing makes sense

2011-05-25T10:35:00.000-07:00

...that's all I have to say today...enjoy...and photos? who cares about photos

couch surfers and sofa rockers

2011-05-23T05:08:00.000-07:00

back to Vienna...working...planning...drinking wine.....thinking...couch surfing

music for today

and some super inspiring people

Logan White

Filip Dujardin

Matthieu Raffard

Nich Hance Mcelroy

Sonia Mielnikiewicz

Ilze Vanaga

Anna Collette

Noah Kalina

Brion Ridley

Joel Tettamanti

Andrew Cutraro

Martin Usborne

www.heartattackgril.com

2011-05-20T10:51:00.000-07:00

...I always knew Mr.B has a big heart...

have a goooood weekend everyBODY

mamas and papas and the others

2011-05-19T05:06:00.000-07:00

After I finished doing highly meditative work which means creating 30 origami birds to release the stress....I was all ready to start scanning negatives from Israel. I hate scanning but anyway I was excited about doing it this time. Our fixed scanner arrived after two months from Germany and we could not wait to see the scans and start making the final selection for the project. But it seems that there has to be some BUT these days. Scanner did its job scanning one horrible film I had in leica since january and than it simply stopped. So now we have a broken scanner which nobody wants to fix...we also have a broken car....broken ventilation in the bathroom...broken electrical plugs in each room....Mr.B has a broken glasses...I have hole in my favorite jeans and Mr.T has a bad mood....
Well Mr.B said we should start shooting digital..BUT...in my case that is impossible which leads me to only one conclusion...I dont want to be a photographer anymore....I want to be a fool....or maybe performance artist :)

BUT not to be all negative, there is a good news also. Mr.B's and mine photos are gonna be a part of exhibition curated by Maga Sokalska called Blogspot. I m really honored to be included since it is exhibition of polish authors...so I m kinda polish now.

Anna Bajorek
Karol Grygoruk
Marcin Grabowiecki
Monika Kotecka / Kama Rokicka
Rafał Milach
Marcin Morawicki
Michał Łuczak
Bart Pogoda
Silvia Sencekova
Karolina Zajączkowska
kuratorka: maga Sokalska
BLOGSPOT otwiera tegoroczną edycję imprezy HALO!GEN odbywającą się w Gliwicach już od paru lat. Wystawa pyta o zjawisko jakim jest blog fotograficzny i o używnie tego medium przez świadomych twórców. Jest to prezentacja zdjęć zamieszczanych na prywatnych blogach internetowych zaproszonych do wystawy fotografów. Blog - medium bardzo świeże, rozwija się w ostatnich paru latach w przeróżnych kierunkach - jednym z nich jest forma publicznego notatnika czy też dziennika, w którym autorzy dzielą się nierzadko swoją intymnością, nie raz łamiąc tym samym tabu. Wystawa pokazuje parę postaw, które mimo iż pozostające w zbliżonej do siebie konwencji, odróżniają się od siebie, chociażby aspektem wizualnym.

27 maja – 19 czerwca 2011

wernisaż 27 maja 2011, godz. 18.00 wstęp wolny
Stara Fabryka Drutu ul. Dubois 22 Gliwice

Portrait of thirty birds

2011-05-17T15:42:00.000-07:00

BilderSucker

2011-05-17T09:55:00.000-07:00

This post was supposed to be posted much much sooner.....the same day as I finished this film I ran to have it developed .... that was 14th of april. Since I usually have the films developed in Poland I was truly shocked as the guy in small print shop in Vienna told me that it is gonna cost me 5 euro ...... for a moment I was thinking to fuck it and wait until I get to Warszaw, and develop it there together with 4 other films for same price .... but after all I decided not to be so materialistic and think more about the possible stagnation of my blog....I said Yes please do it :) ..... and that was a major mistake !!! Film was developed in 20 minutes, I ran home to scan it before the classes, thinking that I might be able to post my beds in the evening....BUT the guy in the shop did not tell me one crucial information. For the price 5 euro I did not only pay for developing.....there was something extra to it .... very cheap training of concentration, perseverance, stress handling and dealing with strong symptoms of aggression. I would actually call it 4 euro meditation-joga-zen course.
This way I would like to thank to Bildermacher company for giving me a chance to explore how it feels when it takes u more than one month to clean one film from dust and scratches. I have to admit that this post was born in tears, and if it was not those beds on the film I would have thrown it away on 14th of april. But today I finished doing something that seemed to be impossible and I feel very oooohhhhmmmm.........

hey DJ turn the music up

2011-05-16T08:39:00.000-07:00

Zofka had a names day yesterday ... I could not be there to scream in her ear how much I love her ....

disco cowboy

2011-04-08T13:07:00.000-07:00

for Mr.T

pandora's box

2011-04-07T08:13:00.000-07:00

if something is really bad it can become really good, but also really bad

face remains naked

2011-04-06T12:44:00.000-07:00

recently I realized that I m kind of obsessed with time based projects. I always have to work on something that requires some kind of regularity. Before it was morning graphix, than one minutes, diary, not long ago I started the beds. I was thinking where this need comes from. I know so many projects of this kind, starting with Friedl Kubelka and her Portrait Louise Anna Kubelka, through hundreds of people taking photos of themselves every day, easy to find on flick or youtube as for example Noah or not to go far a friend of mine Heno doing pinholes on the toilettes. Thousands of people and thousands of ideas based on some sort of regularity. And again, I've seen so many of them ... they could easy be labeled as recycled ideas, but at the same time it is always interesting to look at those for many reasons....how the project itself develops, how the person develops, how the time goes, how the places change, how people change...i dont want to find myself dealing with the topic what is original, what was done before, and if it makes sense to do things which were already seen and may be understood as repetition....this discussion makes me always desperate :) ....I just wander why I always have to work on things based on regularity....is it because that I way I make myself do something every day, or does it make me feel secure...kind of like a footing, or it makes me feel more confident when I manage to work on one thing for a longer period of time...or is it simply from fear of time passing....whatever is the reason I m again at the point when I have to DO something particular daily....so I'm starting with the new idea....

face always remains naked but nobody considers it to be obscene

no more Rihanna in my head...I know what's my name

2011-03-30T14:02:00.000-07:00

today was an extraordinary day....nothing special happened but anyway I felt so different...so alive, full of power....maybe it was the weather, maybe the fact that we went on bicycles for the first time this year or maybe simply the company of Mr.B and Mr.T...whatever it was it made me feel so overloaded with energy that I decided to finally finish working on scans from Israel...and it was not the best idea...here I am sitting for 6 hours...my eyes red, my feet cold and my back stuck in the strangest shape...BUT I did it...I can move on to something else without having to think about this unfinished story....and I have to mention one ultra positive side effect - I stopped hearing Rihanna in my head for long beautiful 6 hours

inhale..exhale..now breath

2011-03-29T04:13:00.000-07:00

couple of days ago during a lecture Matthias Herrmann, my profesor of photography said, that he is sick and tired of blogs in general...he can't even hear that word anymore, cause everybody has a blog and it lost it's function and meaning..he thinks that blogs have exhausted their possibilities and only get on nerves.....a little bit later one of the students said, our generation is "feedback addicted", that is why people use FB or blogs...they simply need to have and immediate feedback to their lives....well I gave these two statement couple of days to think them through....they of course made me feel kind of uneasy since I'm using FB as well as I run this blog...it is not always comfortable to look in the mirror, and it is always difficult to tell the truth to oneself, even if it remains silent...at least for me...but after all I decided to remain feedback addicted and keep the blog going however unintellectual that might be looked at by intellectuals :)...it is good to look at the things from bird's perspective and to get a bit distance from everything, I suppose....

three stories from Jaffa

2011-03-22T04:04:00.000-07:00

Our first day in Tel Aviv we spend walking around and enjoying the atmosphere which was so different and so unique....we also stopped at the market in Jaffa .... Mr.B is usually bored and annoyed by flea markets, he says that he hates all that old crap and he can't understand how people are able to produce such amount of unimportant and useless stuff and what more, they even dare to sell it :) ... but the place with old photos can always excite him...there was a guy selling countless number of old photos stored in the boxes and plastic bags...meaningless and forgotten....it was probably the same place Rafal Milach found and he also could not resist buying some....we were going through those piles of photographs as hunters, fascinated by their materiality, looking for hints to create new stories..our stories...

he's so lucky, he's a star

2011-03-18T10:50:00.000-07:00

I always knew I was very lucky that Mr.T chose me and let me take care of him....I knew he is special..and while I m trying ( I'd lie if I said very much so just trying) to become new Rineke Dijkstra, Mr.T smoothly, without any big effort entered the world of advertising and is on his way to be a known face, maybe even celebrity...well I showed him this ad, which is his first one....he did not say much, I think he is still not sure if he wants to be a star :)

by SHOOTME production

he can breath under water because he has amphibious nostrils

2011-03-18T05:57:00.000-07:00

why to be a fish in a fish bowl....when you sleep everybody thinks you'r dead

baby how did u sleep tonight

2011-03-18T03:26:00.000-07:00

every morning when I wake up next to Mr.B we have the same conversation

Mr.B: I had the craziest dreams tonight again.

Me: What were they about, tell me.

Mr.B: I don't remember...I just know they were completely crazy

So I was thinking that actually the only tangible evidence of what we dream about is our bed in the morning. Sometimes everything may look almost untouched, other times it's battlefield on which we were fighting with all the surreal monsters or where we were falling from sky scrapers....But that is another story, these photos are only to remember all the beds I slept in....

flagship in red

2011-03-17T00:49:00.000-07:00

It is gonna take some time until we'll be able to upload photos from Israel project that we were working on with Mr.B....we are very thankful for all the contacts we got from people before we arrived to Israel...bur most of all for sometimes shocking hospitality of people we've met and who helped us...to keep you tuned here Israel project flagship...first portrait we took in Tel Aviv

breaking the silence

2011-03-16T07:13:00.000-07:00

I m back in Vienna since yesterday....happy to see Mr.T smiling at me in the morning again...we went for a nice walk along Danube...did some shopping at the market...vegetables were not as good as the ones we were eating in Israel but still thousand times better than so called "vegetables" in slovak supermarkets...actually in Israel I realized how much I am used to eating vegetables which differ from each other only by shape and color but not by taste, cause they all taste like colored potatoes pretending hard to be tomatoes or pepper and sometimes even cucumber...anyway I m at the point of sorting things over here again, preparing to start new semester and mainly scanning films from Tuscany meanwhile my tan is pealing of and weather does not look like promised spring at all...but there are 35 negatives from Israel on the way so after all it is good that it rains...

PS:...I realized today that there was a guy called Mr.T who had a show or something called I pity the fool....What a freaky coincidence .....my Mr.T loves fools cause he knows I am one wannabe

Mr.T you'r my best polyp

2011-02-20T12:17:00.000-08:00

tomorrow we'r leaving to Israel...everything is happening so fast, only yesterday we came from Italy and today I finally managed to unpack all the stuff I brought from Warszaw, washing machine did not stop even for a minute, preparations are going on, cameras are packed, nervosity is in the air....I know I should be very excited...and of course I am, kind of, but Mr.T is not going with us....he will not be walking by my side for next three weeks and I simply can not imagine that...as Mr.B said T is my polyp, so how can I be without him for such a long time....I hope we'll be very busy in Israel so that I will have no time to think and I hope whatever photos we'll bring from there are gonna be worth those feelings I'm fighting all day today...we'll see

foto by Mr.B of course .... somewhere in Grado

pour me a glass of wine Malvina!!!

2011-02-20T01:02:00.000-08:00

when my mom was twenty she got for christmas at that time No.1 camera Yashica Mat 124G with flesh, but she never ever took one picture with it....later when ma parent started to date my father was in charge of the camera and I remember him running around and setting up that mysterious device which my sis and I could not even look at for longer than five seconds, so that it would not come to our minds that we might want to touch it....Last time when I was visiting my father I found all of the negatives form Yashica..of course I took them and scanned them all....I really did not plan to publish any of them...as I said before there is plenty of old family photos on internet and I dont mean to bother anyone with central compositions of my naked ass - parental fascinations by newborn......but I simply can not resist posting this set of photos from big family event....clearly I am fasciated by many time related attributes of the photos, but that is not the reason why I'm posting them....most of all I love those careless compositions of a photographer who really gives no shit about the result of his effort ... photographer who is simply enjoying the moment ... maybe I m a little bit jealous :) .... and of course I can not forget to give adequate credits to DJ and his vinyls....

and my BIGGEST FAV of all....lula love

my baby don't care for shows

2011-02-17T07:54:00.000-08:00

.... second week in tuscany...
.... third place we'r staying at ....
.... second day raining ....
.... ? bottles of white wine ....
.... ? bottels of red wine ...
.... ? amount of pizzas ....
.... ? kilos gained ....
.... one and a half day of deep depression ....
.... 2300 km done ....
.... 6 rolls of film ....
.... 5 movies watched ....
.... one fight with Mr.B ....
.... zero fights with Mr.T ....
.... two days left ....

I have a big problem with eating culture in Italy...first of all I can not eat whenever I want...I have to be hungry during designated hours, which means that if I get hungry between 15.00 to 18.00 I can either cook myself or go to sleep...but on the other hand in the evening these crazy people go to restaurant at 20.00 and get themselves a nice five course dinner...with the best will we tried this custom...I did not sleep all night, concentrating very much but unsuccessfully on digesting and Mr.B solved the situation at two o'clock at night, when he decided to puke it all out...otherwise all good till now...I keep being stubborn and shoot only film so I cant upload anything...but Master B is being more than productive testing digital Leica and uploading some nice picturesque landscapes on his blog...well what else to shoot in Tuscany :)

I have to pack ma things and go ....

2011-02-04T06:12:00.000-08:00

so this is it.....I remember very well how I was packing in september overwhelmed by expectations getting into the car hitting the road to Warszaw....I was pregnant than and ahead of me was a complete mist...no sharp edges of what was coming what so ever...I only knew that I'm leaving Vienna and something new is waiting for me in Poland....now I m packing again to hit the road back...I'm not pregnant any more, many things worked out in a completely unexpected ways, but I could not say that I'm not happy, cause we managed pretty well...I'm going back to Vienna, to academy, to viennese breakfast at the Cafe Zartl, to long walks with Mr.T along Danube, to fresh veggies at the Rochusmarkt but without any expectations this time, simply going.....after last "fight for survival days" we decided to leave two weeks earlier than we planed...the Gray is not gonna get us :)....and so I'm very happy that I'll again unexpectedly manage to kiss Zofka exactly on the day of her B-day...and that I will reorganize the place in Vienna cause that idea is bothering me for some time now....but first of all I have to start packing which I'm successfully avoiding since morning, because even Mr.B can not imagine how crazy packed our car is gonna be

....and before the viennese story will start there is something else waiting in the row...Tuscany is good to start with :)

Zofka kicks ass !!!!

2011-02-02T06:02:00.000-08:00

I know I m gonna repeat myself talking about that ugly, terrifying, horrible, depressive GRAY behind the windows...but what can I do when this situation is not changing for two weeks already, and its becoming really traumatic....my biorhythm...no sorry I was gonna say something, but I realized that there is no such thing as biorhythm of my body anymore....I diversify day only by feeding birds in the morning, taking Mr.T for super short walks and otherwise its just a linear flow of some minor actions proceeded mostly in horizontal position....even making a coffee is so exhausting...Mr.B is trying to make steadycam steady for past two days, which makes him so occupied that he manages to forget that he is sick...and I m thinking how the world looked in the times when there was sun

by the way Zofka is gonna turn 93 years in couple of days...she rocks !!!!!!

I'm not Frodo !!!!!!!

2011-01-30T11:18:00.000-08:00

two days spent in the bed...watching extended versions of Lord of the Rings one by one....simply a major chill...that's the way to ignore that horrible gray behind the window....and I'm asking myself when am I gonna shoot something again?.....ooooh somebody has to save me :)

hard to say if this is in the morning or in the evening...these days I have this picture in front of my eyes very often

2011-01-25T13:10:00.001-08:00

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how to be effective

2011-01-25T08:51:00.000-08:00

I'm always comparing myself with other people....with people who are well organized, effective and productive...because I'm not...there is loads of people like that around me that's why I have to compare very often which makes me depressed and when I'm depressed I'm even less productive...Mr.B hates when I'm in my "comparing mood", he is always chilled and so sure of the way he is doing things...but I am not...I wish to be more more more :) ....today I'm again under slight pressure cause I again don't feel productive and effective and not at all organized...and I'm punishing myself looking at the portfolios of those others, who for sure did more than me today

here some of them for inspiration

http://www.ninahartmann.com

http://www.danalaurengoldstein.com

http://www.andrew-phelps.com

http://www.oliviajeczmyk.com

http://www.mariannemueller.ch

http://www.paulherbst.net

http://www.barebjarne.no

http://www.jacksoneaton.com

http://www.heidijohansen.com

http://www.elenachernyak.com

http://www.rashakahil.com

http://toddfisher.net

jonnie craig

in the light of these facts I find the message I got yesterday very funny

M: sylvia aren't u overworked 3xnew blog updates per day incredible..

S: NO I don't .... I wish I was :)

I also finished my diary long time ago...maybe its time to start a new one

to be or not to be

2011-01-24T06:32:00.000-08:00

he is always there, but shows up only sometimes...sometimes I dont know about him for weeks or months, before even for years...he disappears...he has problems to socialize and understand people....people have problems to understand him...kind of a separated genius lost in time and space...lost in his life as well...he is my father

no shoe box, just a simple box

2011-01-24T01:55:00.000-08:00

back home in Banska I accidently came across couple of old family photos...photographs were never very treasured in my family...they all are in one huge box, no albums, no labels, its just a mess of seemingly unimportant memories..I wonder why nobody cares about them, why they are treated as if they were not supposed to be...maybe nobody wants to look back....old photos are always trendy and almost any artistic project based on archive photos is a success...old photos connected with either concrete or untold stories behind them are always so touchy with the little mysteries they hide....everybody likes to look at them, for their undefined magic...just yesterday I looked through new Foam which starts with Seba Kurtis and his project Shoe box based on the lost and found family photos beautifully damaged by humidity and time...but the old photos in my family have no significance and value...I m not gonna try to change it, that is the way it is....just took the biggest treasures to scan, so in case they will get lost somewhere sometimes, they will still be here......

portraits from 1918

photo which stroke Mr.B very much....he was asking me why are all those people so happy :)

and again some happy faces...two girls on the left are having a blast there

this is my favorite ...

ain't such thing as crazy place

2011-01-23T14:43:00.000-08:00

The place was crazy with police, so unfortunately nope.

How I regret not doing a photo review because the place was crazy and the food was good.

Christmas Night was a great night to head to Haze as the place was crazy all night, with a huge party of Persian party people taking over the place.

Even though the service was not that great, and the place was crazy packed.

The place was crazy, they were actually talking about raiding a similar cat lover site.

The place was crazy as always but we were greeted with a friendly "seat yourselves" when we arrived.

Man, the place was crazy that day, electric, but crazy.

The place was crazy, and the stories that came back from those who ventured out into the darkness made you want to experience it just once.

The place was crazy packed and the girls were good looking.

The place was crazy, it was 1pm and everyone was completely drunk or off their face on mushrooms.

The place was crazy, it had a grocery store, a clothes store, a restaurant, 30 some tills, it was overwhelming.

"The place was crazy" inspired by google

and Mr.B has also some crazy photos from crazy places, check it out here

and Edith Piaf is singing in the background

2011-01-22T09:04:00.001-08:00

since yesterday Warszaw...flat is a mess...I am a mess....weather is a mess...Mr.B is in the bath with his new Kindle, dont know what to think about that....washing machine was fool of socks which I forgot to wash before we left, when I opened it Mt.T turned green, since than he does not want to be alone, dont know what to think about that either...I am scanning hard the only one film I did in one month, dont know what to think about that...I hear Edith Piaf singing from our "saloon", what to think about that?!....and while scanning I found this great project that I find extremely good, at least something is clear :)

by Debbie Grossman

no wonders in wonderPOland

2011-01-20T07:14:00.000-08:00

we still did not make it to Warszaw. Yeah we moved couple of km north from Banska and crossed the border of wonderPOland, but we stopped to visit Mr.B's parents. I have to admit that I was happy to let Slovakia disappear slowly behind my back. I just got used to changing places and moving a lot, so one month in such a small town as my hometown is was a bit too much, and almost but only almost caused a slight depression. However something else happened as well. Somebody very close to my family and me died, and I had to face the death and sense the definitiveness. Thank god I did not have many experiences of this kind until now, but at the same time due to their rarity I was unprepared to comprehend what it means to "leave forever". I found myself thinking about this person as if he was still alive even after the funeral. We all knew that it was coming, it was not a big surprise, but facing that definitive situation was surprising anyway. Took me couple of days to start to treat it as a fact, and than in one moment I had this very intense feeling as if it changed my life in a way, it meant the end of my childhood and teenage years that this person was very much connected to. This new situation made me realize that those door are closed already and I found myself on the second floor of a house which I dont know....Since I have no possibility of scanning I'd like to dedicate this post with archive photos to Juraj...

but not to sound too pathetic, which actually scares the hell out of me I ll change the subject. I was browsing on internet a lot these days, cause there is nothing else to do in Klodzko (of course I was extremely happy that the spring was coming when I was in Slovakia, but as soon as we crossed the polish border winter came back ..... and I hate winter) just to stay in bed, eat and surf through imaginary world. I looked at the winter collection (which is now in sale ...aaaaaa) of my most favorite fashion mark - OMG how much I love it !!!! I think somebody up there loves me very much because somehow it happened that this brand has no stores in Austria nor in Poland (I m not even mentioning Slovakia) which means my money is safe, and I am unhappy, cause I can only watch it on internet. Anyway here some of my favs

and they have good blog also, ladies and maybe also some gents here you go
comptoir des cotonniers

thanks to powerful Mr.FB I also found these "I must have them" T-shirts with bird motives, all of them hand made graphics on clothes, always only one piece of a kind....

so if you find it as great as I do, you can contact Marynka and Marcelina - kieszenie.koszulki@gmail.com or check their
PockeTeeBelt blog

well tomorrow we'r finally moving ahead to Warszaw....so I ll get to scan some stuff and I might even go to hairdresser

PS: I don't know if you noticed but there is also a little bit of face lift of my blog, just to keep it looking young and fresh :)

who cares it is 2011

2011-01-07T13:02:00.000-08:00

so all the craziness is over, christmas and new year's celebration...two "events" which I stopped understanding some time ago and my confusion about them is stronger every year (but I have to admit that I partied really HARD on New Year :). The good thing about it is, that I got to spend some time with my family. I wont deny that it all did not go so smooth and without any problems...after all each of us has a completely different life style going on, but we managed pretty well anyway. No family catastrophe, no loss on lives or permanent damage to mental health, which means that it will be very difficult to pack myself and go back to Warszaw....but it makes no sense to bother myself with such thoughts at the moment, since the date of our departure is still not clear. Something unexpected happend and we got some jobs here in Banska with Mr.B. We' ll see how it goes, and if it goes we might have to stay one more week in Slovakia. It is kind of hard to keep track with my "internet life" since the connection in the mountains is really bad and I m happy to take a brake from the virtual reality...so for now just a small upload. An older photo of Zofka, which I love very much because it reminds me the times when she was able to live by herself and did not need home nurse, and a very recent photo of Mr.B and me working in interesting places on interesting photos.

and some tips for web sites that I found recently

http://www.asgercarlsen.com

http://www.gustavgustafsson.com

http://www.ulvelius.se

http://www.bryanschutmaat.com

http://www.emilehyperiondubuisson.com

no christmas no fun

2010-12-16T12:37:00.000-08:00

last days in Warszaw were more than great...I met nice people had a good time..I was baking christmas cookies with Elwira and Soozie ...had a nice talk with Tizian who gave us a painting and after all 13 hours hard talking with Marta :) ... we had a visit coming over at three o clock at night and still loads of snow in the garden. Now its the time to pack and hit the road first to school in Czech and than home to start stressing with christmas preparations...I m trying to pack all day today actually, but the look in the nearest future makes me so nervous that I can not start doing it...Why christmas has to be such a pain? It became for me thanks to general over demanding behavior of the moving crowd on the streets in the shops unbearable time. And what about this short-period-change of "humans" to humans, people are becoming nicer and nicer until one day before christmas eve it finally culminates into almost scary politness and unconditional love of everyone for everyone and everything, but on 25th things are back to normal...I never understood this mysterious phenomenon.

so if you'r gonna feel like you need to hide yourself from humaneness you may want to check this crazy blog

or watch some interesting vids

Lise Sarfati from FLY16x9 on Vimeo.

Shirin Neshat from FLY16x9 on Vimeo.

beer and bath

2010-12-16T05:00:00.000-08:00

Mr.B came back home yesterday...that's good...he was 3 days in Nice and Mr.T was 3 days in depression...well the truth is there are some men's things which these two guys have going and I can not catch up with...like fighting for a better place in the bed, showing who is the boss of our pack, complaining about me or simply drinking beer in the bath...I prefer to drink wine

love it

2010-12-14T04:56:00.000-08:00

i fell in love with this painting from Alex Pawlik found on www.hangart.pl...I wish I had that money

karma rocks

2010-12-13T17:15:00.000-08:00

I can't sleep...maybe cause I m after baking some christmas cookies with friends during which we had a discussion which could be titled "Karma rocks"...anyway I like the way things are...and I like these two polaroids as well

instant soup

2010-12-11T07:15:00.000-08:00

what to say here...nothing...the garden...the workers...and the last the best Karinka with Lajza

that's the way it was

2010-12-08T11:29:00.000-08:00

we had quite a busy time lately...but hell why not, when christmas time of love, peace sudden humanity and cookies is coming...we managed to do everything what we did not plan but did not manage to do even one thing of those planned..time is simply faster than us

we managed to do some reconstructions in the flat which took us loads of energy

there were constantly some workers around, some of them good some of them walking terror but one was for sure unforgettable, so if you ever need a specialist for wallpaper I truly recommend Mr.Czajkowski and his son

and if you want to make a fire from wet wood

or home made pasta call Makao...he is full of undiscovered abilities

if you have a hyperactive dog and you want to calm him down call Mr.B..that is his speciality...as well as

singing lessons, but he might not be willing to help you out with this..cause I really dont know what his plans with Teodor are

in case you want to chill you r welcome in our zen garden

and if you are workaholics I know some people - masters of chilling, who could show you how to do it for free

or you are thinking about a nice portrait as a christmas present than ask me I'll try my best

dont ask Mr. B he is busy with Mr.T

recycling is good

2010-12-06T09:54:00.000-08:00

today is 6.12. and I am melancholic like crazy...my family has a looong tradition of celebrating this day, we r meeting together, my mom prepares small performance (pretending she is St.Nicolas sneaking into the room) to entertain all of us but mostly my grand mom who is shining from happiness, this year I m not at home and all would be good if I did not get a package from my sis in the morning to remind me of the day and to bring a bit of christmas atmosphere...it was supposed to make me happy but I was crying for two hours...well anyway...I remained melancholic for the whole day and Mr.B got totally depressed looking at me...so I decided to finish cleaning the mess in my computer and hard drives which I'm trying to do already second day...but to say the truth looking at the old photos is really not the best way to get back in the good mood....I guess all I can say after today is ....

Lulaaaaaaaaaaaaa ved ty vies

before I archive and clear my comp and my head to fill it with something new a bit of dj-ing .... recycled compilation

going on

2010-12-03T08:56:00.000-08:00

I was not doing much recently talking about photography or whatever is connected to it...but some things are going on anyway...the firs one is an auction of works of young artists in Warszaw and than in january starts an exhibition in Ostrava (Czech Republic) where I m also taking part...that's it....I have to try more much more :)

WYSTAWA & AUKCJA 1. SZTUKA MŁODYCH ARTYSTÓW

NOvember

2010-12-02T04:01:00.000-08:00

november was again not the easiest month for us...but what does not kill you does not count...we r still having loads of FUN

POlishPOsters

2010-11-29T08:10:00.000-08:00

I m completely blown away by the quality of poster design in Poland...found my new obsession...it's simply beautiful and inspiring to watch these creations...and also hard to believe that country with such a high level of this sort of graphic design is at the same time the country with the worst advertising bilboards I ve ever seen..and not just worst but the amount of them is what kills the landscape...

and my favorite Mr.Stasys...I love him because he loves birds

And I am a proud owner of this one :) ... so if anybody wants to see it live...you r welcome for a coffee

lajf NA NA NA

2010-11-26T14:43:00.000-08:00

Lajf na na na na na na...lajf is lajf...I m doing well thanks for asking...I m doing very well actually...actually I m doing Great

3rd Media Art Biennale Warsaw

2010-11-24T00:12:00.000-08:00

Next week starts 3rd Media Art Biennale where I m also taking part with little something (I could not keep the original concept since I lost the data in the stolen computer), anyway I hope it is gonna be a good event and I get to see some interesting stuff, which is actually everything besides cables, paints, workers, dust, vacum cleaner and again workers, dust, cables, gypsum, paint, vacum cleaner and again......

off season polish coast

2010-11-19T13:47:00.000-08:00

Poland is a country of miracles...almost as Slovakia...they have all sorts of things going on....crazy things beating world records....that is why I like it here (sometimes :))))) )

Mr. and Mr. in Turkey undercover

2010-11-19T04:52:00.000-08:00

update of the old stuff...7 photos were missing...so now when these two guys are complete I'm moving on to see how the guys with the wallpaper are doing...(to have a wallpaper was always my dream)

argument

2010-11-19T03:48:00.003-08:00

after the robbery we are again busy doing and arranging stuff that has nothing to do with our plans...again 0 photos...just different workers coming and going every day...nervousity is raising....the air is full of tension...once Mr.B is desperate and when he is getting better I m getting worse...we just want to spend our days in some creative way but the reality is different...we r talking about alarm, lights in the garden, drilling walls, putting cables and so on....Mr.T is suffering under this circumstances and in order to release his anger he decided to lead fights with the birds coming to our garden.....times are difficult for all of us :)

argument from Silvia Sencekova on Vimeo.

Steven Jacobs Text

2010-11-18T00:25:00.000-08:00

Nice text to read

whole text to download

JACOBS FILM STILL History of Photography

i still love birds

2010-11-15T04:34:00.000-08:00

Mr.B decided to enter the market with very contemporary topic....so here you go...FIRST RELEASE of "email song"

email song by bart

under the circumstances Mr.B slightly changed his style and went for something more "out of heart"
ladies and gentleman this is the "robbery song"

robbery song by bart

Pokochaj Fotografie.pl

2010-11-14T03:20:00.000-08:00

interview in PokochajFotografie.pl done by Gra Studzinska

the rest and more on PokochajFotografie.pl

fcuk

2010-11-12T12:39:00.000-08:00

since I was VERY successfully NOT taking any photos since august I had nothing to upload...there was one forgotten film in mine contax - which those suckers did not steal cause it was with me in Bratislava - so I scanned it and found some shots from Finland :D...I m gonna have to get back to the "taking photos" mood otherwise I'll simply start lets say gardening...why not, I love birds...so I m loading the film and we'll see

and little sporty bonus... two men who have a huge passion for sports

first month

2010-11-10T06:43:00.000-08:00

OK so the first month in Warszaw was everything but not what I expected. First I spend some time in hospital ........ and now when I thought that I m getting the power and energy back to start doing things we came home from Bratislava and found the robbed flat. Loosing the cameras - my beloved Mamyia - is a terrible feeling, seeing the broken vase which was a gift from Mr.B with flowers on the floor made me feel so helpless and powerless but the worst of all is the fact that I stopped feeling well in Saska. All our excitement from our new place and from the part of Warszaw where we live is gone....the only ideas we have now is how to protect ourselves and the flat...going crazy with all the possible means of security. I never experienced such a feeling...BUT whoever did it .... you know what FUCK YOU !!!!! ... next time you'll come Teodor is gona kick your ass
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and the list of stolen stuff ... if anybody comes across

a bit to read on a sunny saturday

2010-10-30T03:35:00.000-07:00

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Controversial photograph by Richard Prince was the first photograph to cross million dollar in an auction in 2005. Photograph which evoked strong oppose emotions.
Brian Appel: "On November the 9th, one day after Richard Prince had broken his own personal artist record at auction and set a new world auction record for the medium of photography I contacted the international head of photography at Christie’s auction house with the following e-mail:Richard Prince is now the most successful photographer alive!"

I recommend to read following reactions

BRIAN PAUL CLAMP – director of photo gallery / ClampArt, New York – It is telling that the first photograph to fetch more than one million dollars was a contemporary artwork by a living artist as opposed to a classic, vintage print. Of course, the significance of Richard Prince’s contribution to postmodern art cannot be underestimated. His Marlboro men (along with Cindy Sherman’s untitled film stills) typify the “death of painting” discourse popular in the late 70s and early 80s that set the stage for much of the contemporary art being produced today. Nonetheless, despite my own enthusiasm for and investment in contemporary art, one must first acknowledge that it certainly is the flavor of the day, and the fact that an editioned print by a living artist can fetch far more at auction than a vintage photograph by an acknowledged “master” (whatever that means), may speak more of fashion than sound financial speculation (in the short term, anyway). Granted, such a statement likely seems a bit snarky. Perhaps the traditional photography market is still poised for a major upswing. Or, could it be that the art dealers’ construction of the complicated and troublesome concept of a “vintage print” (typically defined as a photograph made within one to five years of the negative date) has never been wholly accepted or embraced by the large part of the art-buying public?

ALEX NOVAK – photo dealer / Vintage Works Ltd., Chalfont, Pa. / writer, publisher / E – Photo Newsletter – Yeah, I was watching this one too. It’s a shame it sold. I don’t think a lot about Prince’s color copy prints of ads. Anyone could do this work, and I don’t think much about his explanation for it. His concepts are tired, simplistic ideas that have little to add to any dialogue. And his derivative images just plain bore the heck out of me. Will he go up in value? Most probably, at least for the short to medium term. But that is a fake market value being built up around him and a few other “contemporary artists” by the art market. I hope the actual photographer he is ripping off and Marlboro both sue the hell out of Prince and his dealer. There is plenty of legal precedent for that.

DAVID ZWIRNER – art dealer / David Zwirner, New York – It is surprising that the first million dollar photograph would be a contemporary work and not a vintage photograph. However, given the importance of photography in the artist’s output over the last 25 years and the technological breakthroughs in large-scale color photography it was only a matter of time until the million dollar mark would be broken. It is of course ironic that it would be an appropriated image that makes the leap, thus throwing a question mark at the traditional role of authorship that dominates the vintage photography market.

DAILE KAPLAN – V.P., director of photographs / Swann Galleries, New York – It’s a measure of photography’s ubiquity in the popular imagination that a photograph has broken the million dollar barrier. That this work was created by a contemporary artist raises a number of interesting issues, not least of which is “what is a photograph?” From my perspective as an auction house specialist and scholar, post-modern discourse has fast-forwarded thinking about photography in a culture that, for the most part, is visually illiterate. Yes, the record for Richard Prince’s photograph is a marvelous watershed for our community. But, it also speaks to the need to cultivate a broader understanding of photographic expression in all its forms.

ROBERT MANN – Robert Mann Gallery, New York – I think this is a wonderful milestone for the art world! I am especially thrilled that you are succinctly classifying the Prince as a photograph. Along with David Zwirner, I too am surprised that the first photograph sold publicly for over one million dollars is not a vintage work by a classical photographer. I would venture to say that this record will be broken this winter when Sotheby’s auctions off works from the Metropolitan Museum of Art / Gilman Paper Company Collection. The Edward Steichen “The Pond – Moonlight” print will more than likely top the Prince.

MARLA HAMBURG KENNEDY – photo publisher / Picture This Publications, photo consultant / HK Photo, New York – I have been thinking about this a great deal. I find it very apropos that the new world record would be a photograph that has been made under the auspices of contemporary fine art. This is an artist that is clearly considered not a photographer but a fine artist who utilizes for some of his work, photography. It is far away from traditional classic photography concerns but ensconced in conceptual issues. Moreover it shows still the great gap between prices of classic photography that is shown in photography galleries and sold in photography auctions and contemporary photography that is shown in art galleries and sold at the contemporary sales. To wit, a major perhaps vintage unique photograph by one of the century’s greatest photographers (Arbus, Weston, Strand, Stieglitz, Frank) can be acquired for under $500,000, while this price is comparable to photographic works done in editions of 10 by an artist like Andreas Gursky (or Richard Prince). In sum, in my opinion, this shows the stupendous opportunity to buy great works of photography at a relatively very low price compared to the other mediums, and growth potential in the market. I cannot encourage the collecting of important photography more!

MAUREEN BRAY – director of exhibitions / L&M Arts, New York – I think the Prince work is worth every penny that it made at auction. Zwirner makes an interesting point about contemporary photo vs. vintage print. I think the world is finally at a point where contemporary photography and fine art is synonymous. Therefore, we’ll see even more contemporary artists working in the photo medium achieve these auction results. But perhaps the older, vintage photographs may always be seen as a subset of “art”. As they continue to grow in historical significance, they will gain in value, but they may always be considered a subset. I look forward to watching that development. The question might be: what is the cut-off parameters for historical photographs or contemporary art that is in a photographic medium?

PETER MacGILL – photo dealer / Pace/MacGill Gallery, New York – Maureen Bray makes a lot of interesting points, but I don’t really agree that older, vintage photographs may always be seen as a subset of “art”. Even a cursory examination of art history reveals that photography and the other arts are clearly intertwined. Can one really consider Duchamp without Man Ray or vice versa? Those who have embraced this understanding have collected mightily and are, probably, the big winners for they have the goods. Collectors of contemporary art are collecting “vintage” photographs as they recognize their importance, place in history, rarity and archival qualities. Do you think people understand the permanence issues relating to color photography?

STUART ALEXANDER – photo specialist / Christie’s, New York – In response to David Zwirner’s remark, I would say that there is no “question mark” because the “author” of the appropriated Marlboro ad is Richard Prince and not a lesser-known or anonymous artist, thus “authorship” still matters. In order for a “ready-made” to sell for large amounts of money it must be signed by the well-known artist.

SIMON de PURY – chairman and chief auctioneer / Phillips de Pury & Company, New York – This result in no way constitutes a surprise. First it is only a catching up of the public market place with the private one where the million dollar mark for photographs by Richard Prince had been surpassed on at least two occasions. If over the last two years new record prices for his work have been broken with great frequency it is only a long overdue recognition of the market for one of the greatest artists living today. This is an artist constantly evolving and whose recent and current work is as strong as anything he has ever done. Of the twenty most expensive Prince works sold to date at auction, six were photographs. Photography is just one of the mediums that this artist is working in with equal impact. The art market in general and the photography market in particular are going through major changes so that in my view in the future the million dollar mark will often be beaten by major works of Richard Prince in any medium and in the photography market by a range of photographers both contemporary and past.

PAUL SACK – photo collector (Top 25 “ARTnews”) / San Francisco – I just think it is too bad that, with all the great photographs that have been taken since 1839, the first to sell at auction for more than $1million is a photograph of another photograph.

ROGER SZMULEWICZ – photo dealer / Fifty One Fine Arts, Antwerp, Belgium – I must say I am divided regarding this important event. On the one hand, I am delighted that a photograph has finally reached the one million dollar mark at auction as it has been dealing with the stigma of being seen as a ‘slightly lesser’ medium of the fine arts because of its unique properties – one of which is its potential for infinite reproduction. Certainly for a photograph to receive prices that are consistent with the other mediums such as painting and sculpture is a change in credibility that is late in coming. On the other hand, buying at auction can be an environment where anything is possible in terms of motivation to purchase. Craving social status, the desire to do something that is seen as intellectual or prescient, or buying for speculation purposes only could be factors motivating buyers besides the passion for the work of art itself. I do think however, that, whatever the motivations on behalf of buyers at auction, this activity is not a fad or a blip in the history of the medium. More of the same is on the horizon.

LESLIE TONKONOW – art dealer / Leslie Tonkonow, New York – Richard Prince is among the most significant artists of his generation. His ideas transcend the various mediums in which he works and his photographic pieces from the late 1970s and 1980s are among his most important works. Why ask the question about a photograph? Is this auction record noteworthy because someone was willing to spend more than a million dollars on a photograph or because it’s a type of color photograph predicted by experts to fade within three decades? What is fascinating and mystifying to me is the relationship of art and money. What constitutes value? What motivates the buyer? Is this an investment or lavish consumption?

OLIVER KAMM – art dealer (NADA) / 5BE Gallery, New York – Is it a photo? Yes and no – it’s really just part of an artist’s output. I think of him as a painter and a photographer and an appropriationist – so is it really just a photograph? No – he’s not just a photographer. I think he is hugely talented and I think these prices are off the charts. It doesn’t make sense. It’ll bite everyone in the ass. I’m just glad I’m not Barbara Gladstone having to deal with all this secondary work coming back on the market.

THEA WESTREICH – art advisor / Thea Westreich Art Advisory Service, New York – First, the Richard Prince photograph was not the first photographic work to break the million dollar mark. A Man Ray vintage photograph surpassed that mark some four years ago. The more important thing about the market in photography, both contemporary and vintage is that it is taking its place alongside other, more traditional mediums and is being accepted, as it should be, for its importance in overall art making practices. Having said this, it is equally important to accept the fact that standards of scholarship and connoisseurship lag far behind in the rapidly growing photography market. There are fewer catalogue raissonnes, less consensus on the standards to be applied to the evaluation of any given work of art, and generally not enough agreed upon information on issues of vintage, color stability, numbers of prints, etc.